dia pergi mana ?

hmm , rinie as usual aku tunggu dia mcj aku pada ukul 3.30 cuz dia balik sekolah time tue , tp tah laa rinie , satu mcj un ta dapat , yg aku sent jup delivered , pastuh aku try call dya off balik hp dya , hmm , sdih + kcewa la , aku sdih la ! ko taleyh kewp pham prsaan aku same ! ko buat aku cm boneka ! tp tapew lah , biar lah , aku syg dia , hmm , tgk la , smpai skrg ta mcj lagi , bile aku mrah dya , smuaorg backup dya , aku gak sorg sorg , laz skli , aku kna ngaku aku salah wlaupun aku ta buat apew apew , tah la , gurl ! ssah ! tp tapew lah , aku tanak la marah dya , t dya ckp apew lak kn , dya ctew kt kwn dya yg nama nana uh , hmm , taleyh kew jage aib bf sendiri ? sanggup citew kt orang len , ya allah ! aku pun tak fham la , tp tapew la , dya still akan adew dlm hati aku , untuk selamanya ! aku twu dya g sumwhere neyh , dya off phone supaya aku ta dpt search dia , tp tapew la , aku kan dah jauh nan dya skrg , hm , apew aku boleh wt lagi, sabar jew la ek akmal ? sabar ! hmm, smpai sini sajew la , aku dah malas nak edit lagi , rasa nak nanges pun adew act. :((

aslm . .
:(

she changed :(

for your all information , i will not tell bad things about dayah in this blog , but i can't ! , i'm so sorry , i'll be frustrated if i didn't tell all that contain inside my heart , she changed , like the title of this post . As usually , dayah will make me happy , laughing together , but after she had a sport days at SMTTJ , she changed ! she always say that i'm always mad to her even though didn't mad to her . For me , she changed too fast , maybe after seeing her ex-bf at SMTTJ , so sad actually , but i try not to show in front of her , just laugh in front of her , make him smile , but , she will say that i mad to her , so sad actually , my love ? why you should changed so fast like this ? do you love me ? don't be like this , now days , she always say that leave her if her make trouble to me , hmm , why should i care ? it's so hard to leave person that i love so much in this love ! but her ? always say like that to me , what should i do ? :( sad sad sad ! dunno what to say anymore , but i'll try to make her happy as i could , but i already know that i failed to make her happy , even , the joke that he test to me , i'm already make that word serious, so ? my false right ? she never wrong , she always right , she tell to her friend about my attitude , i'm understand now , she does not like the way i'm now , oke , fine dear , i will changed again , for my sake , i will never leave you , i swear ! i will changed ! remember this , i will changed , i'll not get angry to you , you free to do anything ,oke ? thats you want right ? oke , i will do it , i sad of you , bye ! :(

sayang ? :)

bby , kita shared la msalah , tayala ckp tamo bebankan masalah bby kt abg , kita kn couple , kita shared masalah kita , ta salahkan sayang ? bby , berat sama dipikul , ringan sama dijinjing , huhu ! oke syg ? abg ta marah bby la klu tanak shared pun , tp igt lah bby , bby still adew abg , abg dgr msalah bby , klu abg bole tlg , abg tlg la syg . . cm td tuh , abg ta marah , juz kcewa cuz bby tanak shared msalah bby nan abg , at least ,kurang skit bebanan bby uh , tp tgk la td , tanak shared , sb tuh la abg rse cm bby buat cm abg tadew sebelah bby pun , sdih la ! tp tapew lah syg ! abg pham , maybe cara abg chat tuh menyakitkan aty bby , tp hakikat , abg ingin tawu msalah bby n ingin tlg jewp , tu jewp , k lah bby , aslm ! :)

paksu for this baby ? :p

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ahaha ! me and dayah sudah jadi uncle and aunty la ! ayoyo !
Muhammad Nur Ilham b.Mohd Rizal - our nephew ! ;))

all my false ?! fuck it

well, rinie as usual , gado lagi dengan dayah ! fuck fuck fuck ! sehari ta gado tabule kewp ? mesti adew jewp benda yg dya buat bg aku bengang dgn dia , rinie dia kuar nan fae , kwn dia , aku pun tato la btol kew tak , cuz aku mg ta caye dya dah . . 4 ur information , dulu adew dya ckp , dya sumpah yg dya takkan kuar g town tanpa aku , skrg ? dah dua kali , hm apew boleh buat ? aku jauh skrg , so taleyh kwn gerak geri dya dah , dya dah bbas , tp smua dya blame ats aku . . aku trima , alah , stakat mngalah dlm hal kecix , bek tapaya , aku bnyak gilew berkorban untuk dya , snggup dtg seremban , tipu ibu aku ckp lwan tennis , semua la , apew la , tp dya ? hm , still the same , babii la idup cmnie , td aku g kubur my first ex , sha , ctew smua kt dya , sdih glew babii siot , arap sha msih hidup ! tadew org syg aku cmnew dia syg aku , sumpah aku ckp dluw aku igt dayah tue , pada permulaannya la , prangai dya tadew beza lnsung nan sha , so aku harap dya yg org kedua dpt ganti sha , tp tgk la skrg ? ah ! smew jewp , gurl ! mula mula baek , pastuh , mula la tunjuk perangai sebenar , dya tipu aku tato la dah bpew bnyak dah , aku pun pelik la , tipu sakit sb nak tagih simpati , blew nak bwk g check klinik , mcm mcm alsan dya bg , ubt still adew la , apew la ,mmg dya akn buat aku yakin la dya still adew ubt smua , n then ,mcm mcm lagi la , kuar nan member dya bole , tp bilew kuar nan aku , kena balik sebelum ukul 7 la , apew la , erggh ! aku sabar la , sb dah lmew nan dia , aku mlas nak amek twu apew apew dah , dya tipu kew , apew kew , skit kewp , lntak lah , smua helah dya , skrg neyh dia reply mcj lmbt , pastuh aku swoh la dya g mcj owg len , dya ckp ag yg penah dya halang aku cari kakak n abg angkt ? . fuck la , dyaorg yg pnggil aku adik , apew aku nak buat ! lagipun , aku knal dyaorg sblum aku kpel nan dya lagi ! bodoh ar dya neyh , semakin hari , semakin kurang ajar , pastuh , dya kuar un maybe aku tato , tah la , aku dah patah hati la dgn dia , tp still sabar la cuz aku syg dia lagi , bilew kuar jewp , aku yg kena kuar duit semua , tp ckp dlm mcj , duit smpai beribu , tah la , mcm mcm alsan dya bg , hilang la ,apew la , smua adew , g kl ritue , duit aku jewp kuar semua ! rm 300 habis dlm msa 2 hari , gilew ! tp tgk lah , dya ckp aku neyh apew ? selalu sgt nak mnang . . nak buat mcm salah dia . . tue la point dya , ritue aku topup ary khamis kt dya , jumaat tuh dah abes ! gilew la , tu un ckp aku mcm mcm lagi ,babii tol , dya igt aku neyh apew ? tokei nasi kandar ? kaya sgt , telefon fae smpai abes kdit , abes tue ? aku jd balachi kna topup kt dya ! mg sial ! aku neyh apew ? dya pentingkan kwn dya dari aku , sdangkan bilew dya sdih , kwn dya smua blah , tinggal aku jewp di sisi dia time dya nanges ! dya tapenah pk semua tuh , yg dya twu , nak point ksalahan lampau aku , tah la , dya ta sdar dya prampas , rmpas aku dari yana ! igt skit ! ckp sakit la , apew la , duluw sakit dalam kepala , skrg darah beku dalam perut , lpas neyh apew ? hati terbelah ? ko igt aku nak caye kew ? ah ! taik ! dah la , tambah dosa jewp tulis benda neyh bnyak bnyak ! babii ! aslm . .

hmmm :(

act , td aku men mcj nan dayah aw , aku swoh dya antr gambr mms dya kt aku , tp dya ckp ta reti guna kamera hp aku , hmm , boleh caya kew ? hmm , aku pun ckp la , tayah antr , then , dya mcj aku cm marah jewp , aku pun ikutlah rentak dya mcj , dya asek ckp "k" , dan "hm" tue jewp , cm bangang , aku nak marah , tp aku control la , act , aty aku ini , dah tanak marah dya dah , sb ta guna ! dya akn still wt benda yg sma ! cm babiii kan ? :) , td tbe tbe dya mcj aku cmnie , "klu tanak mcj bby ckp.. huh " aku pun reply oke jew la , tp pastuh korang nak twu dya eply ape ? dya reply cmnie "sory gnggu . tanak gnggu abg da . bye .. salam . :( " mcm tuh , cmnew la aku ta ckp prangai dya cm ape ag ! mcm bodo ! aku ta ckp ape ape un ! adew aku ckp aku tanak mcj dya kew ? adew aku ckp dya gnggu aku kew ? jup ag , klu mcj balik , confirm dya ckp salah aku n aku punca dya , klu gado besar , aeyn , si batak kecix uh akan backup dya , apa aku boleh buat lagi , saba jew la . . hmm , dah la , tadew mood bodoh ! bye . .